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My Mystreet rewrite summary again

3/23/26

(warning: this rewrite is just my opinions and ideas and are not supposed to take seriously)

(also sorry for the grammar mistakes and weirdly worded sentences)

I’ve been thinking about my mystreet rewrite so I’m writing about it again. (unfinished, working on it)

Characters (headcanons, things I think they would do, and how they would act to eachother idk):

Zane - Headcanons: asexaul/aromatic, genderfluid, autistic.

Facts:

Zane is more 2000’s emo and gothic style for his fashion

Zane goes by he/she/they

Zane reads a lot of horror/dark and mature books (will fight booktok all day on how they miss the point and how they are a bouch of dumbass that need to go back to school)

Zane doesn’t really play video games besides pony town or other mlp fan games (or just cute games in general)

Zane does rewrites in their free time

Zane listens to rock (no duh) and white girl music from the 2000’s (if you know you know)

Zane works at the Ashida cafe

Zane doesn’t… hate Aaron and KC, they don’t really annoy him and they actually do their job...

“KC is very quick and efficient but she talk’s too much and Aaron rarely talks which is nice but he’s very clumsy and trips easily.”

Zane moved away at a early age just to get away from his family

Zane hobbies are shopping, writing, and coding and he doesn’t have any dreams he’s pretty happy with his life right now

Zane’s design: I think they would be more on the chubby side, their left eye doesn’t have a backstory to it just doesn’t work, I want freckles to be everywhere on their body, also their face isn’t mess up either they just hid it because it makes them feel uncomfortable.

Aaron - Headcanons: Puerto rican, demisexual bi-curious intersex, PTSD, autistic, social anxiety.

Facts: (I’m not sure if I’ll kept the Ultima story, so it might get removed)

Aaron is shy when you first meet him, but if your good friends with him, he becomes a little shit and (playfully) messes with his friends

Aaron eyes burn a little when they turn red and it hurts for him to turn into his full ultima form which leaves him with stretch marks, but the eyes are the least dangers, what’s dangers is the werewolf form, just like every other werewolf on the full moon he will turn, however since Aaron is a Ultima he is bigger, stronger, and has magic/curse-like powers.(not sure what it is or how it works) Also he can turns into the werewolf if he’s to excited or to sad but he doesn’t lose control.

He’s got long black nails

Aaron has a lot of unhealthy habits, exercised too much and forgets to eat and drink water sometimes and when he does eat it’s not enough for a werewolf. He mainly does this because he thinks eating is a waste of time, like he thinks he can be doing something more important than eating

Also I like to think that the first time he turn into he’s full ultima form, was in military school which is why he as bad memories from it and why Derek starts calling him a monster after words

Aaron also works at the Ashida cafe

Everyone knows Aaron is a werewolf because he’s so bad at hiding it, but no one says anything because they feel bad

He’s ear’s and tail pop out sometimes when he gets too excited or flustered

Aaron pretends to be cool in season 1 and 2 thinking people will want to become friends with him

Kawaii-chan and Aaron sometimes bake together

Aaron favorite video game genres are strategy games, survival horror, puzzle games, and action RPG’s

Aaron likes doing cosplay and asks KC if he can help with any of the crafting/sewing/trying on outfits

Aaron is good friends with KC and a little bit with Zane...

“Zane seems scary but he’s really kind but he doesn’t seem too interested in being friends, and KC is very sweet too and talks a-lot, I wish I could’ve been brave enough to talk to her I just don’t know what to say to her.

Aaron likes singing but he’s not very good at it

Aaron is a bit messy

Sometimes Aaron likes to go outside and just look at bugs and pick random rocks. And he will takes them to his room and puts them a shelf

Aaron does research about Ultimas since Derek never tells him anything about their history

Aaron had a lot of suicide thoughts

Aaron dream is to have a family in the found family since (and get rid of the Ultima curse), and his hobbies are sewing, play his guitar, and playing video games

Aaron’s design: I really like it when Aaron is drawn to look like a rat you know what I mean, like the short hair and and the rat like tail because his hair is so short (I’ll draw what I mean later), his body type is more on the skinny side in season 1 and as the season go on he gets more buff and his hair gets longer because he’s taking care of himself, this is NOT to say that being skinny or having very short hair is "unhealthy” it’s just that Aaron wasn’t eating a normal amount for a werewolf which is why he was so skinny in the first place. Besides from that he has a-lot of scars from turning into he’s Ultima form, some from self harm, and some from getting into fights. (He also has cuts on his ears)

KC/Nana - Headcanons: Filipino / japanese mix (Pito Ashida maybe), trans fem maybe, pansexual, based off of calico or a japanese bobtail.

Facts:

She doesn’t do the weird senpai talk anymore (or whatever that was)

Nana does everyone’s cosplay

Nana has a family paster shop (Ashida cafe or Ashida baker)

Nana likes playing visual novel and cute games

Nana’s favorvite dish to bake is Banana Cue

Nana likes death metal

She is deep in fandom (been around since the early 2000’s) will drag you for doing it wrong

Nana has a diary and writes it in a glittery gel pen

Nana starts purring whenever her friends are around

Nana acts like a grandma

Nana doesn’t know if she wants to take over the family business so she can support her family or run a flower shop

She spends money on shit that she doesn’t need and tries to convinces herself that it was worth it

KC is Good friends with Zane and Aaron...

“Zane is really sweet and caring even if he doesn’t show it very often, and Aaron is pretty shy but he’s a big sweet heart and is very helpful in the kitchen.”

KC hobbies are baking, crafting, and drawing

KC/Nana’s design: She looks more cat then human (cat nose, cat patterns on her body, she has cute little paws, and cat characteristics), she’s in the middle for her body type like she thin and she’s a little thick, also since the model has her ears and tail as black instead of pink it’s her natural hair color and she just dye it pink.

(Sorry for not talking about the other characters I’m still working on where they fit in the series and see if I’ll get rid of any.)

(Lucinda, Travis, Katelyn, Laurance, Dante, Gene and Garroth)

Plot: There’s not really much of a plot since this is a very episodic story but I guess the character arcs can be the plot points, like Aaron learning to trust people and be more vulnerable or Zane become of a good friend with everyone or KC finding her own place in the world, something like that. This rewrite is mainly for shits and giggles so I’m just trying not to ruin the fun for myself so I can still work on this.

Season 1: Zane moves into Mystreet (or where ever Mystreet is) so he can be closer to he’s job and now has live to with a bunch of dumbass that bother him. There’s only 20 episodes for this season, the first 10 episode are for learning about the characters, their roles, and personalities and the other 10 episodes is the theatre arc. Also it’s not Romeo and Juilet anymore Katelyn writes her own fantasy story and that’s the one they use in the play.

Season 2: Aaron and Dante get tickets to love love paradise, there’s only 12 episodes since there isn’t any interesting stuff going on besides water parks. The arcs might be a volleyball tournament or a rock concert idk I’m just throwing out ideas.

Season 3: Character arcs finally getting close, they finally achieve their goals in life and have a very sweet ending and the last arc is them going to a convention. (i think side story would still happen but the main story line is finished)

Writing direction:

The writing direction is the same as my old rewrite, very light hearted and silly and would be simlier to Nichijou or Lucky star, just slice of life but very camp way since jess was obviously going in that direction.

Also I removed Aphmau, the main couples, the forced mcd plot, and every season past season 3. I got rid of Aphmau because I watched a video about if Aphmau was a Mary sue and they brought up that if aphmau was remove from the series nothing would change and I wanted to see if that was true, but since aarmau is gone I got rid of the other ships to be fare.

Honestly removing Aphmau might have been a good idea because she is know to get in the way of other character’s arcs to the point where they spent so much time talking about her or aarmau and how much they mean to them or how much the hate them, basic-ly making there love/hate for Aphmau/aarmau their hole personally (Zane, KC, Laurance, Garroth). And that takes up space for other characters to develop, finish their arcs, and have an arc that is not cause or influence by Aphmau or aarmau in general. Like yeah main characters can influence the other characters but not always, and those side characters never treat the main character like there the most interesting person in the room like they for Aphmau.

Also Aphmau as I character feels so y/n coded, like her only purpose in the story is so you can pretend your the main character I even see this in other peoples rewrites of her, like it could work if it was a joke, like she was a joke character that her only personally was a trope but that’s not where we are going for so I remove her.

Honestly a lot of these issues wouldn’t be so bad if it didn’t take up so much space in the writing or if Aphmau wasn’t a blamed character that can be easily replace. Like, “you want a silly and bubble girl”, KC, “you want a character that’s good for funny character interactions that doesn’t make them do something stupid”, Zane, “want a character that has crazy lore that you totally didn’t randomly add to the story to make the story longer”, Aaron. Like their so many characters that can fit her role very well.

And of course I removed MCD because I don’t think it should have any connections to Mystreet besides being the original story, it came out of nowhere do to fandom outcry and became the main plot for Mystreet and will probably take up most the plot for next two seasons (I’m still mad about that if you can’t tell). So I cut those seasons off, it’s for the better anyway since I’m going in a more slice of life direction.

Welcome Home yap part 2

Spoilers for all of welcome home again.

2/23/26

This blog is just little things I notice when rewatching welcome home but I don't think they're big/important enough to add to the main yapping blog (or I just forgot to say). This will propbably very short and the sentences will probably end very randomly so treat this more like notes ot a list of things.

-Franks foot parits

Welcome Home yap part 1

Spoilers for all of welcome home. (I will go back and fix some of them writing later)

2/23/26

I've been rewatching welcome home and I wanted to go on a yap session because I NEED to talk about welcome home or I'll blow up💥, most these and questions/theories I have for welcome home and just what I think will happen in the later updates, so an overall yapping blog. I'm going to start from the least questions and theories I have to the most since I've been doing my research for the two or three days and I'm very tried. I will be manly trying to stir away from the most commen theories, this is not to say that those theories are bad or anything I just want to bring something new to the table. I know not all of the content we talk about will mean anything to the story (merch and concept art) but I think it's fun to look at some of it and analyze it. But we will not looking in too deep into the fantasy/supernatural because not everything can be explained. What I mean by that is things like the recordings of charachters crashing out, of course their is no logic behind it is their to tell the story that's it, sorry for this blog being all over the place I have a lot to say.

Howdy Pillar🐛

Theres not much going on for Howdy right now so lets just start with him, first I wanted to talk about the merch flowers and I know that the flowers are just for show , however the Juile and frank update made it very clear that the flower meanings are important to the charaters and the story so I going to talk about it. Howdy's flowers are apple blossom, and they symbolize good fortune, love, peace, optimism/hope, and transformation, yeah Howdy (for the most part) is kind but I am more inetersted with transformation and good fortune. Does this implaiy that the theme for howdys update will be about him transformation into a butterfly (monster or not) or does this mean like in a mental way, like will we see a transformation in his personaltiy. And what does good fortune implaiy? Will Howdy be good fortune for welcome home like a lucky charm, because obviously he will suffer at some point it the story but will he act as a plot deive (coming in and saving people at the perfet time or something). lastly I wanted to know was what will the black stuff take from him, juile and frank (I'm not sure about poppy or eddie) the black stuff took something from them that made the who they are, juile and her joy and frank and his smarts and a big chock of his mermory (frank houstly got it the worse) so what about howdy, will it take his shop, his custmors, or his family?

Poppy Partridge🐓

In poppy's merch her flower zephyr symbolize rebirth, renewal, and the magic of unexpected beauty, now renewal can mean she is tryingnto kept her job and the magic of unexpected beauty just means people will stop being ableism to her or the albesim will get worse for her, bit the rebirth sounds more intersing. Will poppy die at some point and come back to life, or does this mean poppy will come back in public attention -Also the monster from the halloween update made poppy forget. In frank's update he talks to poppy and says that all she hear was a animal growl and scratching the door, there is no other animal like creature in welcome home, "???: no, please sit with me." -Ron or monster, -turns on light a lantern, scratching on wood and knocking and wall banging, "it's open/ the door's open."

Eddie Dear💌

-merch flower lavender symbolize gay, clam, healing, love, purity, -what did he see -clock watch(merch/"E"), -why did he pretened to forget frank (I know something you don't know. It is two wrods long. The first word is sweet. The second word it a flower. Interwined they call is mind the face of a neighbor he pretends not to know.), -what happen when he left (x-mas).

Barnaby B. Beagle🐕

-merch flower dogsbane symbolize comfort and consolation, -what will happen to barnaby, -what will be the theme, -why can barnaby talk to home, -why is barnaby favortive, -guard dog, why is he acting like an asshole, -what does frank mean when he says "Barnaby always gets his way.

Home 🏠

My first question is why is home alive, now you can say its because of magic🌈✨ or whatever but I think its because of the black stuff, when welcome home was relesed you could look behind home and see the black gop and a swirl in the middle of it where the woods would be, if the black stuff really is organic like a plant and came from the forest it could have sprend like a vires and weht to home first.

Sally Starlet☀️

-merch flower anemone symbolize protection(disease and illness, against evil and ill wishes) and relaxation, -why does sally know about the night monster, -what will happend to sally, -sally knows what the monster is searching for, -sally main writer, why does sally have revealed concept art of her live puppet and why is she larger than the other puppet in concept art.

Julie Joyful🌈

-merch flower idk maybe a primrose symbolism youth, safty and protection, young love, and femininity, -what was that flower and what will it do, - why did she leave her home, -how long has she been playing this persona, -is the flower making her forget, will the flower come back and why, -what will happen to juile, -old tumblr art (noncanon) concept art, tulip child(the rainbow monster handbook)/winter flower-symbolize strength/power, mystery, elegance, rebirth after darkness

Frank Frankly🦋

-merch flower forget-me-not symbolism remembrance, faithful love and emotional connections, remembrance, -the crack noise at the end of "E", -"But then how did I get here?", -frank's foot prints lelds to the forest, -"no memory of that butterfly you saw either", -why should others worry about the flower being upruted, -the clock in his house, -"new flower" (neighborhood), -why was he holding himself back, -what is the red letter, -frank is the only one who see that things have change even with mermory loss, -hasn't talked to eddie for months (since chirstmas), -"does he not knoe how to behave?", -selfwroth, -"its good we uprooted it. why doesn't see that?", -old tumblr art (noncanon)-concept art.

.W 💾

How did W find the commercials, there is a vinatge tv in the first update when they showed the whrp work room, but old tv's propbably won't show old ads/shows unleast there is a network that is still working and streaming those x-mas ads. We will probably wouldn't find out until way later since W touch the black stuff and lost his mermory but how did W find welcome home, did he just runmeg though a old marlo facility since he first found them thurgh a book of them. Why dosen't W watch the wally's video's? It's not like they are if they was they wound have talked about it on there blog, are they intentionally ignoring it or arew they just not supposed to see them, but they have, they see that they are "bugs" and get rid of them, W knows about wally's drawings on the guestbook why don't they just watch the videos. Maybe it's because of the black stuff makeing him forgit???? Why can't W answer the phone, is it becomes the phone is the same as wally's (with the same phone number) and just can't call back. But how does that explian the regger or the fact that they have heard the toy phone say dierent stuff coming from the phone. How much of this is W hallucinate because of the black gop.

Wally Darling🎨

-merch flower auricula symbolize strength and resilience, -wally can now do things whyell looking (can look though bugs now), wally dosen't have mermories of his friends-house black void, -how did wally find the welcome home website and why cna he just add videos/draw, -wally can see thougrh the art/fanwork and the is why he found the website(magic), -wally's voice, -wally not expressing face, -how can wally use the phone to intereact with the site (magic), -did wally send out merch so people can learn about welcome home, -will wally use buggy, -why does wally pop up in juile's update "is that what really happen Juile", -wally stopping frank from leave, -where is wally, -why does wally want to "play", -why is there a wally puppet replica in play exhibition but with no conpect art, -"the screen gets dark when you leave, when you come back the screen glows" his t.v screen, -will wally be able to get to the real world, -"let me in"(I cannot get in)-"are we in trouble-"you know me, you do" wally having RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria), -"I do know what to call what we are doing", -"maybe the gift make you happy?", -"I can't do much as I am now", -what does wally want/want to get into, -why does wally need his phone button to talk to W, -"a smile is to show a feeling called joy. but sometimes there is something else in there. hidden behind petals. hidden in soil. but what is it. what does it do. it lives in the head. it shakes the body, it talks, but what does it mean when its bud is cloed off. what does it mean when its hiding deep in the woods. the answer is not in the book. i wonder why it hides.", -"home is not here" Frank update, -wally changing stuff of juile anf frank.

Questions I still have.

Concept art for puppet functions, -what does the swirl mean, -how did all that merch get there, -will we see the other workers, -how much of the things being showed just things the teams artist drew, - poem meaning "a rose without thorns but still has leaves is filled with fear and with hope. when both are not there may be neither hope nor fear. (language of flowers), -"follow your dog. find your trophy", -the black gop is a portal to a different world, -what does Question Answer want, -why doesn't QA not want to send pizes and why do they know about the black gop and its affects, -what in the box???, -what if it's a puppet world, -why is the show still is going to channels, -buggle transform, -how did they get the job, -"so many stories have risen about their oringins" so people know about the monster, -how much of the content is for work and what is just real, -are they still working at the show, -why did the show shut down (for people), -no footage for the show, -what is marlo(toy, broadcast,, -the black gop grows like a plant, -marlo created the flower/black gop, -are the storybooks just audio.

Who do I think will be the main focus for the next update?

I think Sally will most likely be next because of the update being in the summer and she has too many important shit tied to the story to not make her next. I'm so excited to see what they do even if it's not what I'm expecting, they have blow me out the water with the story telling so anything will be a real treat.

update

1/1/26

Holostars makes me so happy and also makes me so fucking emotional right now. I'm watching jurard's philippines charity stream right now and just seeing in the first 20mins of stream people already have the goal finished made my shead tears 🥹, like holy shit seeing that was fucking beautiful. And the holostars constellation karaoke was awsome. I FUCKING LOVE HOLOSTARS🌟!

Welcome home

12/2/25

The welcome home update just drop a few days ago and it was awesome, I really excitd to see more from welcome home updates, I forgot how much this arg brings me joy. I would talk about it but I don't what to spoil it for you. If you don't know what welcome home is than watch this Night Mind's Welcome Home videos, don't watch those lame ass theory videos tho (the game theorists, and Remgames), all they do is ruin the story. You should watch people like Night Mind and AlleyDreamer, people who actually understand the story.

I also getting hit with a depressive episode and I can't tell if it's because of seasonal depression or that I know that next year is about to get way worse, idk.

Aphmau - MTBlacklullaby

8/24/25

Yippie (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ). I just watch Mermaid Tales the black lullaby and it was AWESOME!

The animation, the writing, the cute zane crab, and the hot men (^///^). I'm writing this while I wait for the next episode that is coming out today (8/31/25) I think... And I'm VERY excited, also Laurance was there which is just expect points :3c.

Aphmau - Mystreet

8/20/25

Conext: A month or two ago I was working on my persona (like artist persona) and when I was watching one of the video I got recommended a video about redesiging mystreet charaters. I was surpised, I didn't think anyone remember mystreet really, it was like 8 years ago when the last time an episode of Mystreet was posted and the main channel switch to more family friendly contect. And thats how I found out that mystreet was getting a season 7( and 8) \(〇_o)/. Honestly I though mystreet had ended at season 6, mind you I was 12 or 13 a the time and I wasn't on social media so I didn't know the series was put on hold q(≧▽≦q). So to make long story short out of curious I watch a summary for Mystreet. And went from going in to just fill my curious to watch all of Mystreet (´・ω・`)?

As much as I would like to yap my ass off about mystreet and how it has taken over my mind but I will for once not do that and instead just draw art. Also I will at some point will post more art on here I just busy with stuff in my personal life.


Warning!

Please read don't the blog(s) below, I talk about suicide, depression, mental health strugges, and other darker and mature topics. I wanted this place to be somewhere I can rant and talk about my feelings without people bothering me, since people can still see your post/blogs even if no one gives it a like or comment on tumblr and I don't really like writing my feelings on paper. Anyway don't read them please.

Rant

Family drama

3/19/26

Why does he bother me about jobs, you know I have mental problems and going outside is hard for me just stop bothering me about it holy shit. Your the one that should get a job you pay bills. He doesn't care, none of them care.

Rant

Family drama

3/9/26

For the past 4 days my dad haves been acting like a little bitch (just being an asshole), like mainly to me for some reason and I don't know the reason as to why (it honestly doesn't take much and can be for anything). He's been getting mad at me for everything I do and treating me like I stupid. He also is saying that I lying about my mental health saying "No you don't" when I told him I always feel tired. What gives him the right to say what my body does when he doesn't even live in it, I honestly should'nt be surprrised at this point, he always pushs my boundaries, huging me when he knows I don't like hugs, always asking to hugout when he knows I have school and lots of it, just treating like I'm dumb for not always agreeding with him or like I'm the one who's acting like a sore loser, and telling me that he misses "the old me" as if there is something wrong with me. At this point I don't even set broundaries/tell him to stop anymore because I know he won't listen and I don't want to start arguing since they don't end well and I don't have the energy. And then today he's acting like everything is normal like he isn't the one that start this, and the day before he was acting like I started it, I so sick of this homeshold what to move out just to get away from this.

(.////.)💦

2/24/26

I want to draw actually NSFW art but I don't want anyone finding it and questioning me about it since I still live with people. It's not like it's a big deal or anything since I'm 18 but it would still be very awkward.

some of yall aren't shit

2/6/26

why do people care about I*E now, like i've never seen people care this much for most of last year, now everyone wants to care so suddenly, like where were you when this was happening in 2025?

opps

1/28/26

I just realized that this diary page is supposed to also yap about things I like and shit and all i've been doing is trauma dumping lol. I would yap about the shows I've been watching but a lot of them are just very boring.

Rant

1/6/26

I honestly don't give a shit anymore. I'm tried of trying to understand what's going on right, I have more important things to be focus on than dumb shit like this. Every piece of important is just bullshit, like everyone is just lying at this point, the news lies all the time, people on social media are always lying, hell even people I follow are lying or just retweeting bullshit, and the rise of AI has also made it hard to understand whats real and whats not. So I'm just not going to tune in anymore, instend of watching this slop I'm going to work just like I wanted to do since the beginning of last year, so I can support my family and the content creators I love. If I die than I die, it's not like it matters anyway.

(Update) I haven't been post as much since I've been trying to enjoy my christmas break and also there isn't to much to do for this site anymore. I hit the end of the road when it comes to adding new things to the site and for fixing isuses. This doesn't mean that I will be abandoning this site or anything, like I'll still post my art on here but I just won't be working on it anymore. For the most part this site is done.

new year

12/12/25

This year was such a shitshow for so many different reasons. Fuck 2025 and all the bullshit it put me through 🚫👆.(I can't use the middle finger because microsoft is to much of a pussy to add it) I would say something positive about 2026, but I know it will be shit too.

update and quick rant

12/11/25

Update: I've been working on find a place to archive my website, working on the work site, finding more file store because onedrive sucks ass, and trying to download a bunch of shit. So I've been very busy with stuff 💦.

Rant: So the stupid age verification bills are finally about to finish, from what I heard it was going to happen this thursday but there was an update and now I think we have to wait a week for results (or a week to vote)? A lot of information has been past around so I don't know what is true yet. It will propbably pass since normies are stupid, it won't be surprising honestly. Lets just hope that other countries aren't as stupid so we can use the VPN's. The only thing I'm worry about is how this will affect my job and future payments I make. This has honestly been very tiring so I don't have the anrgy in me to yell and bitch like I usally do. Goodbye internet 💔.

Also rip to ao3, internet archive and every other site that holds queer and poc content. You will be miss dearly.

Ocd

mental heatlh

12/6/25

The one thing about ocd is that it will just decide to be bother by one thing for months before being bother by something else, like I can be doing ok in the beginning of the year and only worried about money and then at the end of the month be worried about my art. The problem isn't me changing what I think is important to me at the moment, it's being hyperfixation about a problem I'm having and then it abruptly changes to something different before I can finish the other issue.

stress

mental heatlh, rant

12/5/25

I'm really worrid about I*E taking me and my family, my family was born here (besides my grandma) so I know we'll probably be fine but I doubt they wouldn't kidnap every person of color. My dad talked to me about it when I was having a breakdown, he said this has happen before and that I don't need to worry about it. But I have OCD of course I'm going to worry about it. I'm worry that my mom well get taken and we won't have money to stay safe since my dad can't work, I'm worry that they'll come at our doorstep and if we lied about our grandma and they find her we'll get taken for lying, and I'm worry about the person I'll become if I get taken, how different will I be? I know this is stupid since I'm not really at any risk and I should stop bitching about it but it's been on my mind for the past 5 monthes so I wanted to say something. I don't really talk about with my parents because it always feels like I'm being belittled for feeling like this.

HAIR CUT

11/26/25

I cut my hair today. I can wait to let it grow and style it!

normies...

More ranting

11/25/25

Why do normies have to ruin everything!? like stop letting these fuckass bill's pass, cuz what are you going to do when you find out that it will fuck you over too. For context, last night I was on twitter and I saw a post about how some states in australia was doing a state ban on social media (sorry if I got anything wrong), and it pissed me off just thinking about how normies either voted yes or will not vote at all and now some australians and now suffer because of it. Now your probably wondering "why I care so much even tho I not an australian?" It's because one, peoples job and sources of fun just got taken away from them and two I know as so as americans hear about this someone will make a bill to ban it over here as well. I talking state or country ban, and watch the bill pass, and even if it's not a country ban watch it be a fucking state ban and every in red state it will pass. And the best part is norimes will end up crying about it saying that they didn't know it would happen and then regret it. I just wish I can move out of this fucking country (and I know that it will not make me safe from bills like this from happing but I don't fucking care). Lastly your probably saying "who cares just use a VPN to get around." One people shoudln't have to use a VPN to use social media, and two VPN's can't save you forever. What's going to happen when every country says yes to banning something, now you can't even use a VPN to get around it. Or what if the thing your using (an app or something) isnt in other countries? What then? So yes fuck norimes and fuck all the old white man how make these bills in the first place.

Whats next, ban the internet, ban watching tv, ban eating tacos, fucking banning fun?! I HATE BEING ON THIS PLANET WITH THESE LOSERS, GET ME THE FUCK OFF THE GODDAMN ROCK.

fuck

11/22/25

I so fucking tired of other peoples bullshit, just leave me the fuck alone and stay out of my and others people fucking business bro fuck. Why do big companies do shit like this.

yippie

11/20/25

Happy birthday to me :)

yap

11/16/25

I fucking hate waiting bro. I've been waiting for my birthday so I can get my ko-fi and gofundme, and for january for dorhedoro and trigun stampede to get their season 2. like why can't it go faster.

Rant

Tw: rant

11/16/25

What pisses me off about everything going on right now is that people had a choice. Just choose the right thing and everthing will be fine but no, normie's just had to be dumb and ruin it like always. So many peoples lives are at risk and had been ruined because of them. Family torn apart, lives taken, and they know this they told them that this would happen and it did. I think its so annoying is that their are now acting like they didn't happen and trying to switch sides now. One you know damn well that this would happen you just care now because something you care about is now affected so you ran to the other side (which is crazy because they will switch to their side again when things get better and for some reason people don't seem to notice that nor care), and two you don't deserve switch sides. If fuck with bigot than your fovever a bigot end of story, you don't deserve help, sympathy, love, or to be forgiven, you deserve to die and rot away you fascist fucking pig.

work

10/30/25

I feel like I trapped in a loop of my own work/hobbies. I create alot for fun yes, but I also do it because I think it will make me feel better. Like if I draw this or if I do this, I'll magically feel so much better about my life right. I don't really know how to fix this honestly because I don't think me taking a break on creating is going to make me feel better, it would probably make me feel worse.

I conplain

Tw: mental health

10/29/25

I so tired of conplaining now. Like blah blah blah my life fucking sucks blah blah blah I want to kms, like whatever dude. This is the same old shit from before. Idk I feel like I've been in survival mode this entire year, I gave myself zero breaks for myself. I though if I did something bad would happen, like if I didn't retweet inportnet post I'd be part of the problem. But I see people just not care like at all. Like am I the weird one for caring so much? I mean it's kinda hard to not care when you live in a red state. And you don't have the money, your father has health problems, and your own brother doesn't even try to help his own family even tho he still lives here. But you know what, I taking a long ass break! I'll be work of course but I take a break from social media and all the shit that's going on right now and just work on some personal stuff for now.

Anyway besides from that my birthday is coming up and I'm exited for the gifts, two Mystreet season 7 is coming up soon, and three Dorohedoro and trigun stampede are getting offial season 2 release datas! I think both are coming out January of 2026.

Wow, I'm just unlucky huh...

Tw: mental health (kinda)

10/18/25

You know I was conplaining about how I wasn't feeling safe, like things are going to get worse. Well I was right, great... I fucking hate it here, life is fucking overrated anyway. And I can't even help, I don't have money, popularity, anything. And it's not like I'm needed anyway because so much happens without me, without my help. I shouldn't be conplaining tho, if I was responsible for stuff like this to go well I'd feel worse. I think my problem is I just want to feel important, I want to feel like I'm wanted, (in a good way) and I want others to care too but no one does...

Having OCD fucking sucks

Tw: mental health

10/15/25

I hate it when I hear shit from outside and start to panic, like planes or loud noises. I should be use to this, I've been dealing with this for years why the hell am I still struggling. I know why it's because I don't have meds for my OCD nor do I have anyone who can help me, and that fucking sucks. Also the state of the world right now, with the hole taking my rights away, people dying for just being different, and the fact that I nor my family can leave this state/country for our safety, is making it worse. I can't help but get angry when I see other people talk about how much better their doing then me, their not even flexing about it or whatever I just hate how I can't have everything I want. A safety place, money, merch of my favortive stuff, people who understand me, being able to do/make cool shit. Non of these things are their fault, and I know that. I just upset that I'll can never get what I want, and I probably never will.

IDK (vent)

Tw: suicidal kinda

9/9/25

Does anyone just wounder why their alive (of course people have) but like why am I here, I'm not good at anything and I'm not useful. I just wished life gave me a option to choose if I wanted to be alive or not. Sorry for all the sad talk I just going though it. (I mean I warned you tho)

A Bitch is tired (vent)

Tw: depression and suicidal

9/9/25

Original I was going to complanin on bluesky but I don't want to make a paragaph of just complaning so I'll do it here. I hate how everytime theres bad news (thats about anything mind you) its always up in the air, or one social media site it's talking about but others aren't, this is NOT to say that the not so bad stuff is not as inportant because of course they are it's just I would like to know what is the big/real problem to focus on. It makes me feel miserable even if its news that just say the same stuff but said in a different way. I want to just act like I don't see it or I don't care, But of course I care. And the worse part is, is that I can't help anyone... Lastly people saying "Everything is going to be ok." "Things will get better." "Don't give up." and "Don't kill yourself we can make it." like shut the fuck up holyshit! This is not to say people being positive and not wanting people (like me) to kill theirself but, one the people saying this are not even being affected by the stuff happening right now (or ever really), and two it's just not that easy, it feels like taking my life will fix things because I won't have to suffer like this anymore (it doesn't help that normies and just too stupid to help or just make the problems worse). And no things didn't get better lol, it lierally just keeps getting worse and I don't know how long I will last lol.

Idk man I just tired of people bullshitting and being annoying.